Okay, so I’m still fat.
I did try to do things correctly and eat in a healthy way, but somehow it just didn’t work. I’m pretty sure it’s because I have no willpower.
I used to have willpower. I went about 12 months in high school eating maybe 500 calories a day – and I’m 5′9″ on a sturdy frame. I actually turned yellow due to malnutrition and my period stopped. Crazy, right?
Well today my skin is pink and glowing do to all the healthy fats it’s receiving in my current diet. And believe me there are plenty of them coming into the system.
I’m growing more convinced that will power deserts us:
- When we have a husband on the Michael Phelps diet who never gains weight and leaves junk everywhere.
- When we sleep six hours a night in six different segments – thanks, boys.
- When we have an outrageous schedule that leaves little or no time for fun.
In my little world, food is my fun. “Hey, I can’t watch TV or read, I have to work. But I can sure eat some Skittles to keep me awake just a little while longer! Oh, and there’s a brownie – yum!”
Case in point: As I jot this down, my hubby walks out the door to the store asking, “Hey, do you want any candy bars or anything?”
Naturally I say no since I’m trying to pretend I have self control for a hour or two, but later I’ll just eat his because he leaves it on the counter and I’ll need the artificial energy.
Plus it’s just sitting there half eaten, and as we know – I have no self control.
Don’t worry about me. I think my self control is hiding under the shadow my butt seems to be making these days. I’ll find it again eventually.
I can sympathize with you. Between my oldest and the baby, I find myself snacking a lot just to stay awake (and to dull my urges to scream like a banshee when things get too stressful).
Comment by Stacy | September 26, 2008
I’m so glad I’m not the only one. Today I tried to be good. I made a salad and bought low fat dressing to take to work. I opened it up and the lettuce was frozen. So much for healthy. I must run and eat up the left over fudge now…
Comment by Rebecca | October 7, 2008
To build your will power, I recommend fasting. Only drink during the day and eat at night only after the sun goes down. Do this for a whole month. After all, you will have no problems with people eating around you.
Comment by HealthNut | October 19, 2008
That’s an interesting idea – my concern would be a lack of energy during the day. I am on my feet and on the go from about 5am until 7pm when I get to sit down and work some more. Teaching and parenting young children are very physically intensive, and I don’t know if drinking rather than solids would give me enough energy to get through the day without headaches or fatigue…
Comment by Rebecca | October 22, 2008
You have a way with words. I just love how you wrote this post. It’s a feeling most of us can identify with but I doubt anyone could express it quite so well or in such an entertaining way.
Comment by MilitaryMom | October 31, 2008
I can definitely relate. I love to bake, but find I tend to be the only one eating the cookies. Why? Because I’m home all day and it is there. I love sweets and I know the right things to eat, but as long as there is something tastier (I have a major sweet tooth) that shall be eaten first! We don’t get out much either, and rationalize to ourselves that this is our entertainment…which doesn’t sound so hot as I write this. But what can I say, it is the truth.
Comment by Momma Moo | November 7, 2008
Thanks, MilitaryMom. I plan on regaining my self control, my girlish figure, my roots and my mind all at the same time – somewhere around age 45 by current estimates.
Comment by Rebecca | November 7, 2008
Momma Moo (Love that!)
I have Rice Krispie treats in the fridge that Jake and I made today. It was great fun. It’s more fun eating them. LOL
Comment by Rebecca | November 8, 2008